Ahhh...one year ago was my last blog post. Wow. Total blog failure. I don't know why I'm so bad at this. I really DO want to immortalize our memories, I promise. Sadly, I think I'm just lazy.
And, speaking of lazy, I don't really make resolutions either. This drives my husband crazy. He thinks the new year is a great time to recreate, and to improve upon yourself and one's aspirations. Meh. I just think it's one more thing to keep track of. However, in spite of all of my resolution skepticism, I did make one this year. Connecting.
I made this resolution primarily in honor of my little 6-year-old boy. He started kindergarten this year, and everyone tells me that this is the year that he'll start drifting apart from me. Which is hard to believe, because in my mind he has already drifted. He is totally a daddy's boy, and unless I'm bribing him with a chocolate chip cookie, he really wants nothing to do with me. Truth is, it's really painful for me. I really want nothing more than to have that mother/son bond that so many people talk about, but I'd be kidding myself if I said we had that. We don't. I'm determined though, and I don't think it's too late, so I'm making connecting with him my resolution for this year. I want in instill love, self-confidence (although he is oozing with this already), values, and self-worth in him. I want to be that fun parent that he looks up to and wants to hang out with. Wish me luck, he's not an easy study.
But why stop there? While my son is my top priority, I realized that I'm not-so-great (read = lazy) at connecting with friends and family either. I'm inspired by a dear friend of mine who makes everyone around her a top priority. These last few years have been really tough on her, but yet she still finds the time to make everyone in her life feel loved and special. If I could be just a little bit like her, I would feel successful. So, starting today (or yesterday as the case may be...) I am going to focus on connecting. Really connecting with those around me. My hope with this is that my son and I are able to get closer and close the gap that has grown between us and that I can show my friends and family how much I care about them and what they mean to me. Oh yeah, and maybe I'll make this blog a little more of a priority as well. I think I can I think I can...I know I can I know I can.
